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I am going to start a story and I want YOU to help me decide on what to do.
Please know that stories require planning and you wouldn't see a chapter for at least a week. The first chapter would also be like a 'pilot' and I need to know that you like it before I continue.

'Your harmony now my melody'-
A non-fantasy fictional love story. I can't tell you more because it hasn't been developed.

Papers please fan fic-
If you don't know the game, google away or don't choose this option. If I did do this it would be based in the papers please universe but not involve much story from the game. Like, the fact that Kolechia and Arstotzka don't get along would be in it, but Jorji Costava would not be. I'm probably just confusing some because you aren't as addicted as me. Anyways, moving along....

Adventure story (short)-
This would be multiple stories that do not relate to each other at all as Deviant art doesn't make it easy to do that. If you chose this there would be an adventure story probably every two weeks. If you chose this I would finish the adventure story I talked about a few weeks ago (really sorry).

adventure story (long) with not many decisions and has chapters-
This is pretty much self-explanatory, If you've seen Until Dawn, it would be like that. This would be very confusing and hard to do though as Deviant art doesn't allow colours -_-

Completely fantasized story (most likely with demons and alternate universes (like undertale))-
Self-explanatory. If this was chosen I would be delighted to put OCs in this story. I might decide to make the worker letters relate to this world as I did say I would involve it in a story, but I don't know.

No, focus on other things-
If you chose this it means I wouldn't write a story. There wouldn't be any poetry to replace it, maybe there would be, maybe there wouldn't be. If you would rather more poems please choose this and then if it has majority then I'll discuss more. Do not choose this and expect more haikus. Haikus just come to me. Poems are mostly the same as well.

As soon as this journal is done I'm uploading the photography (really sorry) and a poem i wrote a long-while back.

I have made the strawpoll multiple choice, please choose all the ones that you like unless there is one that you really really want then only choose that option.

Strawpoll (PLEASE VOTE!!!!):

Voting will close Friday the 1st of September 2017.
If there is equal votes for something there will be a revote or maybe I'll choose or write both. I don't know right now. I'll deal with it if it happens

"Everybody hates you"
"Go Kill yourself"
"Stop self pitying yourself"
"You're really mean"
"One day, your honesty will kill you"
"You're a piece of shit"
"No one wants you here"
"No one wants you here"
"You're annoying"
"You're annoying"
"You're an idiot"
"People only know you because you're weird"
"You're annoying"
"You're so f**** annoying"
"You suck at violin"
"Why did you bully Maddy?"
"You're a bully"
"You're a dick"
"You're a cunt"
"You have no friends"
"You have no friends"
"You retarded piece of shit"
"You autistic piece of shit"
"Stop razzing with Maddy"
"You're creepy"
"You're creepy"
"You prick"
"Connor is a mother fuck"
"Fuck you CE"
"You make everyone want to die"
"Connor Eaton Keely"
"Connor Eaton shit"
"I don't trust you"
"I don't trust you"
"Fuck off"
"Fuck off"
"I hate you"
"I hate you"
"You're ugly"
"You're ugly"
"You're a terrible person"
"You think you're so great"
"You're useless"
"You can't do anything"
"You're so stupid"
"Can we make him leave?"
"Go get help"
"Go talk to someone"
"I've been trying to avoid you for 3 years"
"You're hopeless"
"You're hopeless"
"You're hopeless"
"You're selfish"
"You act like no one else has problems"
"You don't care about anyone but yourself"
"You have no friends"
"You're a weak piece of shit"
"You owe me $15 you cunt"
"Just pay him"
"Just pay him already"
"It's your fault"
"Shut up"
"Shut up"
"Shut up, so annoying"
"You suck at photography"
"You can't even keep your phone straight"
"You don't know how to treat women"
"You wouldn't understand"
"You wouldn't understand"

This is a collection of most of the stuff that is said about me over my high school years. I will do something for the people who can guess 15 of the quotes. Good luck i guess???

My family is also abusing me right now. "Intermediate strings are shit" "You're shit" "You never practice" "We're gonna take you out" I have few friend support, I'm not allowed to do anything with my life or I'm too afraid, but you can't blame me. I'm crying. I cried.

I'm going to write a list of code names, you'll know which one's yours

Dear Squishy Pineapple, You say you care about me yet you share my secrets and you blame me for it. Stop self-pitying yourself and blaming others for your own doing. You literally blamed me for deleting my messages so you wouldn't show anyone. It's not my fucking fault. That's also a reason why you have trouble making friends. You blame others for your own mistakes. I know you can be nice and usually are. You just make me feel like shit sometimes and i hate it. It makes me want to run away from you.

Dear cuddly muffin, You're really, even my parents said you were and you are. It's just; you think everyone is nice. People who are nice, when they are mean and they hurt someone, they apoligise, they don't mean to hurt anyone, people who mean to hurt people, they are not nice. Don't you agree. And yes you are very cuddly :)

Dear rubber ducky, i don't get you. You know it's a joke yet you still choose to cry over it. Why do you choose to get upset? More importantly, why do you retaliate. for example: At camp, two kids tapped your beanie, you didn't hit them. When i did it, you chased me and hit me. I don't appreciate this physical abuse. I'm supposed to be your friend for fucks sake. Fucking act like we are friends. Friends have jokes with each other, I still don't understand why you can't understand that, but friends do not hurt each other. I almost don't want to be friends with you because you keep hurting me. Me and squishy pineapple make jokes all the time, they are worse than the ones i do with you, but it's still a good example. I call her small all the time and she calls me a dork. We both know it's a joke. You know it's a joke too. I've told you.

Dear smooth pillow, you're really nice and you've done nothing wrong. I'm lucky that i can talk to you about almost anything. Thank you for everything :)

Dear crushed pumpkin, OMFG why the fuck were you such a bitch at that time? You went to squishy pineapple and never to me. You never heard my side of the story and you completely demolished our friendship. Are you sexist or something? Do you think girls can do no wrong? You say your a nice person but you never apologized. This is why i act weird around you most times.

I'm not gonna write anymore because they won't read it. I cared so much for people, but they didn't appreciate it. I just don't care at all. Rubby ducky, why did you make out Holly being in a ward was my fault? Why are you so closed-minded? Tbh sometimes i want to slap you in the face for what you've put me through sometimes. Everyone also makes out I'm sexist and racist, horrible person etc. NO ONE let's me show emotions anymore. I can't abuse anyone out of emotions. I can't be honest with anyone. This is mainly because of squishy pineapple. Stop pretending to love me and shit squishy pineapple. I'm not going to let you manipulate me anymore. We can still be friends but I am never hanging out with you again. i don't want to get any closer than we are now.

Why does no one ever get it? I'm just lonely and i just want to talk to you. If you're a good friend you'll just listen to whatever i say. I can't talk to anybody about anything i want. Don't get triggered if i say something bad about someone, I need to let it out so it doesn't stay inside. I don't need help nor want it. I'm just lonely and want friends. Physiologists don't want to listen if there wasn't money. I want to talk to a friend that doesn't want money, they want to listen, to talk. About anything, they'll listen to my opinions.

Now i have to go to my cousins house. I will make another journal tomorrow saying everyone who said the things. You have till tomorrow to try and guess fifteen for a small reward. You know what? I'm gonna make it twenty, fifteen is too easy.

If you cry over this, I'm sorry for being the fucking nice honest person that I am. The truth hurts, fucking deal with it. I cry inside a lot. Today i cried outside. Just because she is crying and I'm not does not mean I'm not being affected.
Even though bob is now dead i want to tell you about him:
name: Bob
age: 4 hours
species: Bacteria (cold)
strengths/weaknesses: strengths: Makes people sick weaknesses: is killed by penicillin and A LOT of other things
secrets: Just Wanted to be everyone's friend and has a superpower
most importantly: he has a 13% chance of reincarnation
His parent died giving birth to him, he didn't have a name, I named him. Even though i couldn't see Bob i knew he was there. I didn't hold him or anything, i just said hi and he didn't understand or reply. He crawled on my hand, i knew it was him because it began to itch. I didn't want to get sick so i washed my hands. Let's just hope he had children.
Should I cover it, I can't make up my mind. Tell me what you do with your books

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Yesterday was the best day of my life. My brother's party. I'm so happy i didn't invite a friend because that would've ruined the night. I've realized parties are the best thing ever because they have something that everyone likes: Music, drinks, hanging with friends, talking, dancing and more!! Everyone kept complimenting me by calling me a great slave because i was helping out. My brother knows so many nice people who help out there friends, but they are also very mature.

I've noticed the people in my or "our" year level are mostly introverts and y'all think I'm annoying. Well fuck you and I'm sick of being used. I learn from what happens. Amelie, I'm not helping you in french because i don't like you lying and using me; and i'm not going to speak to you again. It's too bad i will never have a party as epic as my brothers, but i can still hope for it.

(May 13th, 2017 Saturday, Brothers party)
I got this from thesepticscorpion 

Just comment and i will:

1. Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your dev art page

2. Tell you a colour you remind me of.

3. Tell you what element I believe you belong to (e.g. water, fire, air, earth, etc.).

4. Tell you what animal you remind me of.

5. Ask you a question, and you must answer.

6. Tell you something I like about you or your art.

7. Give you a nickname.

8. Tell you what am I watching/listening to right now.

9. Tell you what food/ flavor/smell you remind me of.

10. Tell you to do this in your journal too, if you haven't already.

i copied and pasted dis from thesepticscorpion (thanks)
I was tagged by Autumn-Fires to do this

1. Write the rules. (Or copy and paste them, whichever you prefer.)
2. Write 13 things about yourself.
3. Answer 13 questions made by the person who tagged you, and make your own 13 questions.
4. Tag 13 deviants. Make sure they know that they are tagged.
5. Don’t say ''You're tagged if you read this".
6. It is forbidden not to tag anyone.
7. Tag backs are allowed.
8. If you don't make this tag in a week, you need to obey a wish of the person who tags you. (I'm not going to do this one to you.)

1. I have never kissed a girl
2. I have never been overseas (to another country)
3. I have never moved house
4. My star sign is Virgo
5. My favourite animals (in no particular order) are Wombats, Koalas, Cats, bears and turtles
6. I have never broken a bone, mainly because i'm very lazy
7. I get teased at school and at home and have few friends
8. I love french and am learning it
9. I am so physically retarded it's not funny
10. 3 and 81 are my most favourite numbers
11. i believe that science overpowers religion meaning that you can say you believe in god, but you can't say he exists because it hasn't been proven.
12. I have an obsession to soft things.
13. I have no pets

Questions from Autumn-Fires :

1. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be?
-I would go to Galway and Dublin in Ireland, then maybe England and then into France. (I love europe)
2. Favorite letter of the alphabet?
-?????? I don't have a preffered letter.
3. Preferred medium for art?
- Poetry and Drawings (digital or paper)
4. Favorite kind of art? (For example, literature, painting, graphic design, etc.)
-Photographs, drawings, stories and traditional poetry
5. If you could reincarnate as an animal, what would it be?
-Cat :3
6. What is your "happy place"?
Europe (although never bin)
7. Any hobbies? (Real original, I know >.< )
-BGs, Traveling, writing, drawing, language, science
8. Related question to #6: What is your favorite place to be?
-This question isn't the clearest so i'll answer both ways:
Favourite place i've bin: Some beach place in SA or NSW
Favourite place i have access to: Movies
9. What is/ was your favorite subject or class in school?
10. What do you think is the greatest issue today? (Be serious)
- Apart from Trump, i think it is people not being respectful towards others. I can't be stuffed blabbering on so i'll just use a quote: "Never judge anyone, because you don't how there life is and what they're going through"- Jay Shetty.
11. Land or sea?
12. Light or dark?
-If your mean day or night, then night. Otherwise if you don't than light, dark is more scary.
13. Rain or shine?

My questions:
1. Why do you have a passion in art?
2.Would you rather be eaten by a dog or scratched to death by a cat (many scratches)
3. What makes your day? What makes you happy the most?
4. Would you rather ride a camel, elephant or horse?
5. Who is your favourite youtuber?
6. What do you value the most:
Choose: Relationships, Money, Happiness, Helping others, Changing the world, Being the best person you possibly can or Helping the environment
7. What annoys you the most about society?
8. What do you care about most in a relationship?
9. What type of things do you laugh and what jokes do you make?
10. What is the best thing about you? What do you think people like most about you?
11. What is your favourite mythical creature?
12. If everyday you were a different sort of creature, what creatures would you be (in order) in the first seven days?
13. What is your favourite movie ( apart from everything well known, like harry potter) that you would recommend?

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And there's not really anyone else i can tag. Sorry i didn't tag 13 people rules.